Stupid Insecurities (Karkat x Reader) Pt 2

“(y/n)! Please wait!! Stop fucking running!!” the loud and unusually sad voice of Karkat shouted to me as I ran. Sighing I stopped and turned to him quickly wiping the tears and looked to the ground, as if it was the most interesting thing on this meteor.

Karkat stopped in front of me breathing deeply. Taking a moment to catch his breath and look at me he noticed a tear slide down my cheek. “(y/n)… why did you run off like that? It sounded like you were confessing you feelings… but why run off?” he confronted looking to me confused.

“I-I… I’m sorry” I said quietly just loud enough where he could barely hear me. “Sorry about fucking what? Running away? ‘Cause if that’s it I don’t really give a flying fuck. You stopped so don’t be fucking sorry about that. Now tell me why the fuck you ran away in the first place idiot!” he asked his usual demeanor returning as the previous incident slipped both of our minds.

Letting out a small squeak I looked to face him. “I-I was scared you… wouldn’t like me back. C-Cause I basically j-just poured out my fe-feelings to you and I f-feel horrible about it. I-I just put even m-more on your plate, then t-there was. Plus it’s stupid to think that you would even like me back. I’m a human that isn’t anything special. I’m not pretty at all, I don’t even have a nice bo-” I started clear tears poked out from the corner of my eyes then falling and sliding down my red tinted cheeks.

Karkat’s eyes went wide in shock at first but then they looked at me in an angry glare. A gray hand flew up covering my mouth stopping me from continuing me self-hate rant. My (e/c) eyes went wide as I stared at him in shock from his actions. ‘Why is he doing this? Does he care about me like that?!’ I thought as Karkat said “Just… shut the fuck up (y/n). This is not the time to belittle yourself!”

Muttering a small “but” against the soft ash toned hand I look up to the angry yet gentle blackish-red eyes of my red blooded troll flush crush. “No buts (y/n). Now listen closely and don’t say ANYTHING until I am finished and you will know when that is” he said sternly removing his hand from my mouth.

A deep breath was taken from the troll in front of me as he closed his eyes and looked to the ground. “I am going to be completely fucking honest with you (y/n). I don’t think you are an idiot or a nooksnuffer or any other insults I say to you. I don’t think you are ugly with a horrible body” he starts and takes another deep breath. Opening his eyes he looks to me his eyes gazing at me with an emotion I have never seen him with, compassion and… love? Is it love, thinking about it now I am 100% positive it is love I saw in his eyes.

I stay quiet and I nod lightly before he continues. This time he speaks in a gentle and sincere tone as if one harsh word would break me and make me cry, saying “You are the most beautiful human I know, not just that you are the most beautiful being I know. You have a great body, you’re not fucking stick skinny and you’re not fucking fat, you are fucking perfect to me. I don’t give a flying fuck if you’re a human… I’m… flushed for you okay? Get that through your stubborn thinkpan!” he shouted.

Then he did something I didn’t expect in the slightest. He kissed me, he fricken kissed me! Me!! My (e/c) eyes went wide in shock my mouth agape. Karkat seemed to expect it or found it amusing, I’m not sure. His gray lips turned up into a smile as his lips moved against my stunned and frozen pink ones. His hands went to my waist holding me gently.

Slowly the idea of Karkat actually flushed for me and kissed me started to go through my mind and get accepted. My eyes slowly closed and my lips started to move against his. A smile rose onto my lips as I kissed him deeper and more passionate with my arms winding themselves around his neck. Karkat continued to kiss me his lips pressing against my own.

Sadly our lungs started to scream for air as they were starting to run on empty in oxygen but full on carbon dioxide. Pink and gray lips pulled apart breathing deeply. Both heads leaning in, foreheads touching as both male troll and female human filled their lungs with the needed oxygen and rid themselves of the poisonous gas carbon dioxide.

Blackish red eyes looked to my own (e/c) ones. “Do you believe me when I say I’m flushed for you fuckass?” Karkat asked with a sweet smile. Closing my eyes I started to laugh and nod “Yeah I believe you Karkat. Glad to know” I reply and look to him smiling. For some reason hearing ‘I’m flushed for you fuckass’ is wonderfully reassuring. Even with the fuckass part, it is completely genuine. I wouldn’t hear it any other way. I pressed my lips to his for another wonderful kiss.